Shadows Come At Midnight: From PTSD to Purpose - Paperback

by Ross a. MacInnes (Author)

At seventeen, Ross MacInnes stole a car and was caught. At nineteen, he was sworn in as a member of the esteemed Royal Canadian Mounted Police. And by his thirtieth year of police service, he was a commander in the organized crime division of a major urban department.

Shadows Come at Midnight is a memoir like no other. Here is an intimate account by a retired police officer about a life filled with trauma that originated from both within and without. Here are stories of tragedy and unimaginable sorrow suffered by a man who folded his anguish into his soul.

The stories of grief, terror, humor, and compassion will move you in ways you never imagined and will hold you spell-bound. The roller-coaster of the author's journey is mesmerizing.

On his first posting as an RCMP Officer, his partner was murdered. As a result, he began to take extreme risks in his work, and there was no relief for the nightmares except booze. He quit the RCMP and for four years searched for an occupation that would give meaning and purpose but was unable to find it. Then, determined to face down his demons, returned as a Police Officer with the Calgary Police Department.

This is not a self-help book, but a story of a journey through mental and emotional suffering to a life lived with purpose and joy.

It took MacInnes years to understand the price he'd paid, and to realize that certain injuries heal, but that PTSD, OSI and moral injury can only be managed, never mended. He shares the experiences he endured so others can realize they are not alone with their own shadows.